I get it. Parenting isn’t always glamorous. And kids are great at keeping your ego down. Like way down. Like if I were looking at a puddle of quicksand, my self-esteem would have been swallowed up by the quicksand and my self-esteem would just be yelling “help” until it is finally sucked all the way under the sand. Never to be heard from again. Also, elementary-aged Jayme thought that quicksand would play a larger role in her everyday life. Who would have known that it would play no role in my life, other than to swallow up my self-esteem.
At the end of the school year, Chase got to invite his family into his school for a tour and to show us all of his art projects he had made throughout the year. Chase goes to the same school that I went to in elementary school. I was feeling a bit nostalgic as we reached the landing of the stairs in-between the top floor of the school and the main level. I stopped there and told Chase that when I was in his school, we got to create a giant box fort on the landing. We all got to work together to build it, color it and then read in it during reading time. Chase waited patiently until I was done with my story and replied matter-of-factually, “You should have spent more time in math class and less time in the fort.”
Also, the other morning as I was driving Chase to my parent’s house to play, I was yawning. A lot. I’m pretty sure I was so tired that my yawn was yawning. Chase asked me if grown-up are always tired. And I told him yes. I believe my exact quote was, “Being an adult just means that you get tired, then more tired, and then more tired until you eventually die.” Then Chase responded, “On a death scale, you must already be a 7/10.” Then I replied with a quiet, “Probably.” And that was the whole conversation. My child thinks I am already 70% dead. I must really be looking on-fleek these days. (Yes, I did have to look up how to spell fleek to make sure I was spelling the new, hip word correctly. Also, is hip still a hip word to use?)
So, in other words, parenting has been pretty soul crushing for me recently.
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